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..while I may be a happy-go-lucky person at times, I am a big dreamer. I love Japanese things, especially the Gothic and Punk stuff..and Ayumi Hamasaki. I also love Anna Sui-ish graphic art. I enjoy singing, composing, drawing, doodling, surfing the net, watching TV, reading, designing clothes, and sleeping. I try my best not to judge people, but I do have the tendency to be snobbish or stupid at times, but I'm not perfect - nor is anyone else. I believe that all people are born with talent, and that everyone is unique. And if you have a problem with that, then get out.
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Saturday, March 14, 2009

scared. very scared.
I watched "Extreme" last night on the Lifestyle Network.

FYI, it's about celebrities who go through the extremes and lose/gain a LOT of weight - and it's a cycle to them - also known as the yoyo diet.

And when they described how the celebrities try to lose weight by severely restricting food, I couldn't help but remember my days in Malaysia.

Okay, okay, I'm trying to gain, and I've learned a lot, but there's still this tiny voice in my head saying:

"Never mind your health. People will love you as long as you're thin!"

I've been trying to be optimistic about my health.

But whenever I see a new speck of fat - even the tiniest, I just feel really SAD.

I'm like, why do I have to be fat to be healthy?!

How come other people are so naturally thin and yet they're still healthy?!

I was born chubby, does that mean I have to stay chubby to live?!

-sigh-

Needless to say, I feel like crap today.

Yuki